*marching in spirit today, but have spent much of my life attending the March For Life in Washington, DC*
These crazy-haired babies are #whyimarch!! I found out I was pregnant with my youngest 2 days before I left my husband and took my two kids (ages 26 mo and 6 mo) across the country to live with my family. We had spent the month prior fighting and he said he wanted a separation, 4 days into my novena to Undoer of Knots to save our marriage.
He was unhappy, he didn't love me anymore, he wanted distance. But he also wanted pleasure until I could leave. I thought maybe it would change his mind about wanting me to leave. I fought it for a month, and told him that if I left, it would ruin us. I knew it would end in divorce.
Eventually I realized leaving was best, and my mom came out to get us. When I found out I was pregnant, he begged me to give her up for adoption. I refused to even consider it. I knew that even though I was most likely going to be a single mom, I couldn't go through with putting her up for adoption. I wanted her, and couldn't imagine life without her.
Around 25 weeks, I developed serious complications. My bile duct was blocked, my liver started failing, and I had a potentially fatal infection. I was orange with jaundice, and in extreme agony from the constant gallbladder attack. My whole body itched from the inside, and I have scars from where I tore at my legs in my sleep to try and stop the itching. I only slept 2 hours a night, sitting upright.
At 29 weeks I went into preterm labor. I was in the hospital for 4 days while they tried to stop labor and figure out what to do about my bile duct and gallbladder. I also developed two hernias. The GI doctor said it was serious and I could die. I was put on bedrest and a very strict diet, and tons of medication.
Finally at 38 weeks I went into labor and delivered her via repeat C-section because she was transverse-breach. 6 weeks later I had to leave my babies again because after getting my gallbladder out, I developed more complications and ended up back in the hospital for 4 more days. Despite all of that, abortion was never an option. I can't imagine life without my Amberlyn Rose, and I'm sure her siblings agree.
#whywemarch #prolife #alllivesmatter #marchforlife